There is a lot I don’t know, I’m unsure of my choices, I wish I could predict more. But I don’t know, what I don’t know the most, it’s so infuriating, is how to fix anything. Sometimes I don’t even have proof that something is wrong, but every fibre of my being screams, “wet floor!”
Its completely fine, honestly I’m comfortable with the perpetual sign, for my life. I’m comfortable knowing, I don’t know, in my life because the accountability is me. But a nation can’t not know, not with millions of lives hinging on every choice. As citizens, I don’t know, honestly how do we go to sleep at night knowing we have elected people to make life altering choices.
Wait for election period to select and go back to watching your own home slowly burn, with you in it. Honestly how do most of us choose leaders who do not set a road map for the entire nation to follow in order to achieve sustainability. The process can’t be vote them in, sit in the fire, vote them out. I don’t know how it would work but the balance between government and citizen is such a delicate dance, with so many moving pieces the choreography mustn’t be left to chance. The dance must be in fluid motion such that a trip would go unnoticed to the untrained eye.
Team work is the theme to any success story. I don’t know why or how but we really are so focused with fighting each other at every turn. So focused on being right, so focused on winning we forget the goal is to build a table that we can all sit on and share. Somewhere along the line we were forced to hate each other, forced to think if my person is winning then it has to be coming out of mine. The abundance in the world is so utterly mind blowing that we could all eat and have more than enough to spare.
But somewhere along the way, we become only concerned with ‘mine’. The concept of the village raising the child is not possible because it’s not safe. We are no longer safe around each other, so we don’t want our “enemy” to succeed. Yet success for anyone of us should represent success for us all. Because ultimately we are people of one nation, but even more than that we are people of one world. Mother earth, so I don’t know why we exploit, I don’t know why we seek control of the masses and not allow each to discover the wonders of the earth with their own will.
I don’t know, I’ve watched as crowds deliver retribution for all their long lost property on a caught thief. Nothing more dangerous than a mob that delivers punishment in the name of “justice”. Yeah having my phones, laptops, pencils, twix, playstation 1 stolen, that sucked. I cried a few times. But, a whole human life being bargained with, laced in heavy laughter as they discussed the possibility of grabbing tires and lighting this whole human being ablaze.
I still cringe every time I remember walking away from those mothers. I was no help, no courage to speak for the thief being beaten. No, I actually thought it would be fun, I thought I’d get in on the act and gain some much deserved retribution. I don’t know, what I saw made my blood turn cold. I heard him beg for mercy as us the crowd found new ways to torture him. On the ground next to him, the DVD player he stole, a whole life, worth less than a DVD player. And we enjoyed it.
I don’t know but what I do know is I’ve tried a dozen ways to forget somethings in life. But when there is no closure, no answer that closes the loop, satisfies the ever present whispering voice. I can’t not think, maybe it could have been different. I don’t know something about the way things are done just doesn’t feel right. Make your own conclusions I beg of you but first before you do I will implore you come prepared to always ask questions for yourself and answer them.
People only have suspicions when we fail to make ourselves reliable and maybe asking for the truth might be too much. I don’t know, I just think we deserve better. We aren’t getting what we deserve and for some reason I am not okay with it. But I don’t know how to say it or why to say or even if I have a right to say it.
I look at where we are as a country, as Zambia I see so much that I think could be better. I’m sure I’m not the only one. I see what looks like a government that isn’t set with an actual plan for success, I don’t see the biggest opposition being any different. A lot of others I’ve spoken to seem to agree but “maybe just try something new” are the chants I hear. I see citizens that don’t know their power and feel powerless instead.
Sometimes I feel like we need a board of directors to run Zambia. Because ideas and talent we have but vision to execute yayi we are lacking. We need people honestly looking to boost our country and turn her around for the better and the betterment of her people. I don’t know how this can be done, but right now without a key focus on education I think we are lying to each other that the plans being made will change our lives. But because I don’t know I’m interested in knowing what you think, please educate me be wary I will ask a ton of questions, where I’m unsure.
I don’t know how to help Zambia at the level I’m at so im asking for your help. How can we make Zambia better? What is it we are lacking to have found ourselves this far into unsafe waters and why as common folk citizens are we easily distracted?
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