I have grown up in what I would call a typical African upbringing. This meant church was non negotiable, you had to go. For me it also meant experiencing different church views was inevitable. Growing up I experienced many church doctrines, depending on which house I laid my head upon.
The many voices advertising their version of Jehovah God to me made the experience feel like a commercial transaction and not a relationship.
All I heard was, “my church is better, my beliefs are better” I wasn’t interested in another set of laws or possibility of loving a building. So my heart closed, or so I thought. However every morning when I awoke the reminder was back, before a meal, instinctively when I was hurting. When I was uncertain, happy, scared.
I looked all around me and I was sure a beautiful world could not be an accident, let alone a coincidence. I decided the God question would keep bothering me until I figure it out. This one question digs in and forces so much unlearning as the world gets viewed through a different lens.
What do others believe?
I asked myself that question relentlessly, it was after all the only thing I had not tried. I asked and probed and daily the reminder kept popping up.
I stopped bothering with church and started focusing on finding happiness. Feeling fulfilled and complete. Meditation, yoga work outs, writing, music, anything and everything but nothing could fill the void.
Towards the end of last year I started eyeing my bible as the reminder kept on ringing daily. By the turn of the year I had started reading my bible for the first time and I’ve been the most consistent the longer I’ve done it. I’m currently 50% in and surprisingly I’ve not looked back.
50% into the bible and everything is a story of a relationship between Jehovah God and his people. Once that dawned upon me it became clear, what was missing previously was a relationship with God. Following his teachings, using my gifts and talents to honour the life his given me. Gratitude.
Life is still a complete craze, but what I’ve learnt has allowed me a sense of freedom and contentment with my life as I pursue my dreams. I do not know what you believe in, I do however want to ask, do you find peace and happiness within your beliefs?
Like when you are alone at night, in the wee silent hours of dark. Are you at peace with your beliefs and how you adhere to them? Are you fulfilled in life?
Fulfil isn’t based on money, it should be based on the understanding that regardless of our achievements, we are all exceptional.
That after all is the whole point of having a relationship with Ba Jehovah, that you are unique and special and your relationship with God is unique and special. That God made us all equal, no one is better than the other just like no one is worse. We are all amazing and just like your human rights no one can take that away from you.
That is also why having a relationship with God is important, I’ve come to realise. As humans we can set false qualifiers for how things should work even when they pose a bias that further promotes inequalities. But by studying the bible and developing that relationship with God I get to see things differently and my burdens have never felt so light.
Notice I didn’t quote scripture or anything because I don’t want to pretend I know more than I do. I’m not giving you a sells pitch to join my cult I’m simply saying intentionally building my relationship with God has been a fulfilling choice of my life.
May what you believe lead you to further embrace love and spread it infectiously. May you feel fulfilled in this short life of ours and may you find happiness and a peace that surpasses all understanding.
Until tomorrow love and light to you as you dance with your path ever more🌻
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